BORED

I was going to go and bug some students in my really good class and convince them to come to my English club. My desire for promotion has fallen so much. Its really awful when I have nothing to do I get really tired and discouraged. And then all my grand plans kinda fail to materialize. Its lunch when I was going to bug them but sadly I'm still sitting here! Argh, ok never mind. The thing that sucks is I feel really obliged to put make up on when I have to go see the students. In reality I don't HAVE to, but not wearing make up way back in the beginning of the school term students actually asked why I didn't, asking if i overslept etc. And getting caught outside of school (where I never wear make up) actually had them commenting about me not wearing it. Also when I walk the streets of Fukuoka people would kinda stare at me, and I thought do I have something on my face? Is my clothes weird? And then I realized "DUH! it's because I'm not wearing make up!" Its about as common to see a girl naked, than it is to see a girl wearing no make up. Thus, maybe I should just break down and go with the masses and wear it. BUT LAZINESS!!!! AND MONEY!!!! Make up is expensive..and that makes me sad. Also make up takes time, precious, precious sleep time which I love. So in the end, I'll run outside throw some make up on (semi badly) and then go bug class 9 only. Hah, I win....not really. Shit, I have so little time should I go? I should since a bunch of them actually used my question box...and I have yet to answer their questions. And I did say I'd give them BONUS stamps for asking me, so argh I'll go. Wear make-ups bear through the comments that the teachers make about why does she wear make-up only when she see's the students. I guess it is obvious I care more about what students think that what other teachers do. (Hey, bad relations with them just makes me bored in the shokuinshitsu, bad relations with the students makes me go ARGH and wanna stab my eyes out in class.....)