Why does it have to be so hard?

I am making an English camp, and I have been really pushing for about 2 weeks to get students to join. Hardly any one has and it's been really frustrating, actually the whole process has been.

I've been planning this for well over 6 months, I brought the idea to the old kyoto and kocho, who told me to tell the new ones. I brought it to them, and was recomended to make it an "official" event. My supervisor was supposed to help me with the paper work, which means I had to muddle through the paper work by myself for HOURS trying to do it in Japanese, and then I handed it over to my supervisor who then corrected my Japanese mistakes and handed it back to me.

Well in the end my version was rejected and it was a SOLID MONTH of bugging my supervisor to write the GOD DAMN ONE PAGE paper for approval. So after having to ask my KYOTO THREE TIMES to tell my supervisor to do it, he finally directly told him.

It's OK though because I'm used to not getting any support from the teachers. I want to make a pen pal project OK I have to do that all by myself. Hell, I am even used to teachers making some things harder for me. So I want to push students to do ANOTHER speech contest knowing that last year NO TEACHER HELPED ME AT ALL. When I tell them at maximum two students, they ask SIX, I am now trying to help FIVE students not completely fail. But, that's ok, even when they make it harder for me, I can generally manage.

So then flash forward to two months ago, I had down basically no advertising but had decided now was the time to tell the kids about the camp. Of course hardly any one showed interest I wasn't that shocked, my school is not exactly a top academic school, in fact it's more sports oriented...well the students are at least.

Well it's not just the students, about a month ago I saw a student and while I'm not 100% sure she wants to be a flight attendant, she was requesting SOMETHING from one of the coaches, one of the strictest coaches and he was flat out refusing her. It made me really worried because my kyoto had told the coaches to let the students go to this camp. But, really whats to keep the coaches from not doing that, I mean there are tons of "rules" they have to follow but none of them really do.

Despite the fact I went to the trouble of FIGHTING to make this event official so I DIDNT have to go up to EVERY COACH AND BEG THEM TO LET THE KIDS COME. I sucked it up and two weeks ago I asked 10 coaches to let the kids comes, most of them said, "Sure, if they students ask I'll let them go" With the exception of the coaches who have tournaments. Well a lot of clubs have "practice games" but I was thinking those don't really count now do they.

So after this I really pushed forward and starting not only asking students directly but in the morning going to every class room and telling them directly to come and putting up posters and attaching the sign up sheets. Yesterday though, I ran into a girl who wants to be a flight attendant (not the one from above a different one) and I asked her why she won't come. She said she already asked but she got refused, BY A COACH I ALREADY ASKED!!!!!! Ugh, that is so painful, I'm trying so hard, but it's just so fail.

It in a way makes me feel better that no one wants to come but that the students are being refused, but what the hell is the point of this? Why am I trying so hard? It's just feels like this is all impossible, I'm fighting back a tidal wave with cardboard.

Someone told me to bring the girl to the teacher and bring my Kyoto and tell the teacher to as the teacher again. But, it just feels like the girl will look like that younger brother who ran to mommy after Tommy punched him. The teacher will probably be forced to let her go at this point, but I'm sure right after Kyoto and I are gone he'll make her club life shitty.

I want to get him and other teachers to let the kids go, but what can I do? Do I beg, what?! Even if I do won't it just make it harder for the kids, how many times do I have to ask, how many more hurdles do I have to jump through?!

It's just so hard, I'm crying at my desk, and I actually want someone to ask me why, but everyone is just ignoring me........